It's all over now

Back again, but different
Now I am stripped
of my pseudo-me
hauled out of the service
to others.
Asked to step down
I expected an agony
instead I felt joy
being out from that burden

Which burden was that?
You may ask
The one that the Lord put there?
The answer is "no"
It's the one that I took on me
To earn the life-right
to earn the right to live

So few fathers before
So many crowd me now
Trying to please them
Has sucked me quite dry
I know they didn't ask it
The rules are quite simple
Just listen to God
He speaks through US.

That's unfair I know
I know that I signed up
Hoping that it would make me someone
Hoping that pleasing the people would prove
I was nice
Well it didn't work, see
They hated me anyway
And saw right through me
Even though I tried hard

Well. I have learned my lesson
I will now be myself.
I will now try no longer
To satisfy...
In the meantime I long
just to sleep for a whole week
Or even two
To just forget about life for a while.
I take it in installments
Holding out a bit longer
Gets me 2 minutes of oblivion
Where I can escape into whatever
As long as its far.
And the anger still simmers
Now just near the surface
God help me top sort it
before it sorts me