anxiety 2

2005-07-13

Dear Father,

I am feeling a bit anxious about the next few weeks. I am trying not to think about the issues and the practical stuff too much, since I am on leave, but I am anxious. So I put it all into your hands father. Again I commit my heart and its fears to you. I know you have ordained this plant and so I trust that you will enable us to do what is necessary to bring it about. Father, I know that you love me. I know that you made me for this. I know that there is bound to be opposition but that you are more than able to do what is required and to make sure that we know what is required of us. I receive your love, lord. I know that you are not out to get me by allowing me to fail. You have perfect confidence in me. You chose me for this job and I rest in that. And the truth is that while I am the one on earth who is to bring this about, you are the one in heaven who has all the power and wisdom we all need to make a success of it.

Lord, so please secure me in you. There are some practical things that we need to do. And these can only be done by your spirit. If you do not go before us then no matter how much we do there will be no fruit. Please father, help me to know when and what to do, let me lead with wisdom and foresight and strength and let me more than anything lead out of a deep trust in YOU and that you are for us and not against us. There are always so many different issues to face, but none of them is a surprise to you.

Lord, so send your spirit before us. Let him make a way for us in the neighbourhood and with the people. Let him come upon us and prepare us, let him come upon us and make us what we are supposed to be for this neighbourhood.

I fear failure lord. I am scared to make a mess of things. There is so much riding on it and so many people influenced by this. Finally we are on the rd and you are ahead of us and we do it for love of you. Be our God and we will be your people. Show us what to do and when. God be our banner!